A while back I posted about a lack of contentment, which continues to be a struggle for me at this point. I have taken some significant steps to try to overcome it, but it continues to bring me down. I am not one to spot a demon behind every issue, but lately I have felt that this is in many ways a spiritual issue, probably brought on a lot by being incredibly tired physically and emotionally, but a spiritual one none the less.
I know the truth that "The joy of the Lord is my strength" (Nehemiah 8:10), and yet I remain in this struggle. The knowledge is not translating to the heart. I have contemplated how in the world to make this right thinking seep down and create right feeling. I don't know what the answer is, but almost a year ago, I felt really convicted to take time to blog about the things in my life for which I should be so grateful. I posted five blog posts about it, determined to post one every day, but as with other things in life, this fizzled, and I did not remain committed to the endeavor. I also noticed about that time that I really started struggling more with being frustrated with the circumstances of life (mostly with regard to not having the time and flexibility in my schedule that I want). This was partly why I thought the blog posts were so important. After I started posting, though, things began to seemingly get worse, almost as if there was some sort of attack, and it has continued to be a difficult season for me.
With that said, I am very aware that while things are not always perfect and great, God has blessed me immensely, and I want to continue with this idea of posting things for which I am grateful. I am not going to set myself up for failure again by trying to do it daily, but I do want to write down the amazing blessings God has given to me. I started a new blog for this purpose a year ago, and I think I will continue typing in that one. If you are interested, the link is Counting My Blessings . . . And Making Them Count.
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Becky...I think with new seasons there are new challenges. I do believe satan wants to discourage, deceive and cause us to be discontent. One of the many things I do to combat it is listening to and singing praise music. David often read aloud God's word to himself and that too helps me. One of the reasons I began my blog was simply to keep a record of the blessings I too easily forget. So, you're doing the things I know to do. I will continue remembering you in my prayers. :)
p.s. I love your newest blog!
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